I tell my students that it's there to provide them with encouragement and hope, but really it's there for me. It gives me comfort, even though I highly doubt Einstein had the type of dysfunctional relationship that I have had with math.

Several years ago I was plucked out of out of my elementary classroom, where for over 20 years I taught reading, writing, science, social studies, health, and, yes, math to 7 and 8 year olds. I put up bulletin boards, made sure everybody got cupcakes and juice on birthdays, planned and took field trips to zoos and museums, drew smiley faces on papers, filled out report cards, did the million things, both large and small, that all elementary school teachers do. And then one September it was over.

I was given the title "math specialist", a title that made me cringe, because my mathematical ability is by no means special. But as long as the math didn't get too difficult, I had no doubts about my ability to help struggling learners. In fact, I felt I had a small advantage; I could empathize with their struggle and perhaps be able to re-teach and explain concepts in ways that might make sense to them. For inspiration I looked to a familiar world, the world of sports. I could be like Charlie Lau!

Two years ago, something happened that changed everything.

One day,while surfing the internet for math resources, I followed a link to Dan Meyer's TED Talk: Math Class Needs A Make-Over. There's a powerful sequence when he shows a page from a textbook...

Just looking at it made my eyes glaze over and gave me a familiar sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. |

"Which section do you think is the steepest?" he asks. That was a question I could answer. It was a question anyone could answer. You could just eyeball it and make an intuitive guess; you didn't need any "math". I was hooked: how would we find out? If there was math that would help answer that question, then that was math I wanted to learn. Very powerful stuff for a kid who just wanted to crawl under his desk during math class. I replayed the video over and over, and from there went straight to his blog, started at the beginning, and began reading. I became convinced that if he had been my math teacher, things would have been much different, and realized that what I had been doing wasn't really teaching.

Next came Paul Lockhart's A Mathematician's Lament.

I remember reading it and thinking, "This must what it would've been like to read a samizdat in the post-Stalin USSR." I imagined math teachers passing worn and dog-eared copies to each other, one step ahead of supervisors waiting to confiscate the manifesto and denounce them as heretics. I just couldn't believe that a real, honest-to-goodness math teacher would write something that was so damning of his profession and that so accurately captured my learning experience. I wanted to cry when I read this:

*...if I had to design a mechanism for the express purpose of*

__destroying__a child's natural curiosity and love of pattern-making, I couldn't possibly do as good a job as is currently being done-I simply wouldn't have the imagination to come up with the kind of senseless, soul-crushing ideas that constitute contemporary mathematics education.*It would be hard to overstate what this meant to me. It meant that I had, somewhere buried deep inside, an ability to do math. Maybe it was small, but it was something that could be nurtured and, given the right conditions, it could grow. It had been crushed out of me all those years ago, but with some help it could be found again.*

I suppose I followed a well-worn path: from Dan, who taught me about 3-Acts and intellectual need; to Andrew, whose work at estimation180 has had the biggest impact on my practice; to Fawn, whose humor, humanity, and creativity has helped me keep my eye on the ball; to Michael, whose relentless and passionate search for meaning inspire me to dig deep; to Graham, an elementary compadre who keeps me company in a middle- and high school world. And there are many others. I took Jo Boaler's course, and learned about Carol Dweck's growth mindset research. So it was true. I could learn, not just how to do math, but maybe even to like math. And if it was true for me, it could be true for all those other strugglers out there: the finger counters and the red x'ers, the fraction flunkies and the long division losers, the times table fist bangers; the confused, the lost, the drowning, and the already drowned.

So I joined a wild and wonderful community called the MTBoS. I lurked. I started commenting on other people's blogs. I started my own. And I've grown more as a professional in the past two years than in the previous 25 combined.

There is another, smaller picture hanging in my room.

This one has been with me since my first years teaching. But it has taken me all this time to realize that the words apply just as much to me as they do to my students. We no longer have to use our imaginations to envision what engaging, exciting, and nurturing math classes can look like. The teachers who are embracing and exploring new ways to make math meaningful in their classrooms are taking no small amount of risk. But they are doing no less than what they expect of their students. I am proud of them, and proud to be counted in their number.

School's in. It's time to get back to work.

Wow. Well said!

ReplyDeleteThanks! And thanks for stopping by.

DeleteI can't even begin to tell you in all the ways this exactly is my same path. I was given the title "Math Specialist" but for 13 districts in my state. I cringed every time I got introduced to a group of teachers as the Math Specialist. I have the same Einstein quotes in my PD slides! I have grown so much in my understanding of math, starting with Dan and all the others you mentioned however I have you in my list as well. Thanks for sharing.

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13 districts...you were very courageous to take that on. But think of how many teachers and students have benefited from your experience. Thank you so much for your kind words.

DeleteGlad to have you around, Joe. Whenever I need to talk to elementary folk, I start ransacking Exit 10A, FWIW.

ReplyDeleteIt's worth a lot. Dan, thank you for everything.

ReplyDeleteKeep 'em coming! I've definitely learned a lot from you sharing. Here's to another year of exponential growth (mindset style).

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Thanks Graham. The NJ-GA connection only gets stronger.

DeleteLovely. Such a nice description of your trajectory of learning. And yes, many of us have followed a parallel path. Coming out as an ongoing math learner is half the battle. Transparency about your struggle allows for others to admit the same. Love what you do. Thanks so much for taking the time to document your passion.

ReplyDeleteThanks Turtle. Your very early endorsement of my blog was crucial in encouraging me to continue to write and express myself.

DeleteAnd I want you to know that the CCGPS K-5 math document is an amazing and incredibly important achievement. I have only scratched the surface (mostly digging into the grade 1 curriculum in an effort to bolster what we're doing at my school), but what you and your team has accomplished is greatly appreciated. You have lent the weight of your state and your office to legitimize and bring into the mainstream many of the essential tenets of the MTBoS. The inclusion of 3-acts, estimation180 tasks, innovative games, student-centered problem solving activities with "open middles" (just to name some) at every grade level will provide teachers in Georgia and beyond with the resources they need to make math meaningful in their classrooms. Well done, and I hope you all receive the acclaim you deserve.

Aww, thanks, Joe- but it's really all down to the teachers and coaches who have done and continue to do the day to day work of putting these tasks in the hands of kids, and then knowing when to push a bit, and when to get out of the way. Funnily enough, there isn't nearly the positive support for this work within the state of Georgia. Slowly, slowly grinds the wheel of change. Again, thanks for the kindness. It is very much appreciated. I learn from you with every post!

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